Getting ready

I don't usually have a whole lot of time to share much with you guys so I guess your getting a little more of me than usual in my "down" time. So little sisters at least you get a glimpse of me that tells you I am human after all and not just a machine! HA! So I AM a little sad. I do miss the people and the patients I worked with. Knowing the ins and outs of a facility lets u spend more time with the patients which I enjoy, so I will miss that the most for awhile. I am exctited to start a new job though. I'm prepared, got my review reading set aside to refresh my memory on fresh hips, knees, and all other general post op surgeries that are on med-surg and acute rehab floors. I feel pretty confident with my experience to handle most anything. In my experience as an agency nurse I was mostly fine in a new setting, just needed to map out where supplies are, how to use the phone, and computer system. I'm usually a quick study so I'm sure I'll be fine. A few people are keeping in touch which helps but there is always some kind of loss going from one job to another. Either you find people weren't as comfortable with you as you thought, or any problems associated with leaving is just too much for them to deal with. Which is ok and natural I suppose, it justs makes you wonder about your ability to judge people well. And I guess if they can't go through the mess with you than you don't need them anyway. Anyway, I don't put myself out there easily any more, I usually observe people for awhile and interact before I feel it's "safe" to share more of me. Life, especially the healthcare business, can be so "cut-throat" and you never know what people will use against you so it's necessary to guard yourself. So, I guess the loss of working with people I like and trust along with the apprehension and energy it takes to guard yourself in a new setting until your comfortable feels a little heavy. BUT, to put things in perspective, it's definitely NOT as bad as a few things I've had to deal with the past couple of years so I'll keep that in mind to deal with all of this. Still not sure about this house, time will tell. Some things are resolved and some are not. I've been looking around for houses and apartments to rent. Kind of disappointing. The amount of square footage you get in some instances isn't much for what your paying and the deals that look good have a completely different style than I like, and I won't be able to change them much since I'll be renting. I've learned it's important for wherever you live to feel like home and cozy...so decorating issues may seem silly, but they are important to me. Well, either I will find the right thing or it will work out to stay in this house, we shall see. Starting a new job takes alot of time and energy to evaluate and change things so it goes well. So I may be less available for awhile but I'm still here. Love you guys!