We've all had times in our life when things are very overwhelming. We try to take this in stride and not kick and scream too much....well some of us do. Those of us that do, hold all this crap in and eventually explode....unless we find a way to let it go. And many times, unfortunately, we "let it go" on someone that has no part or fault in it at all, or if they do it is very very minor....they just happen to have the unfortunate timing of being there in front of us at the way wrong time. I recently exploded way way overboard on someone that really did not deserve the degree to which i exploded....he did provide a small trigger...but a very small one. I haven't been too big of an ass too many times in my life, usually, it's someone walking all over me...but sheesh when I am, boy do I go all out. I'm not sure which is worse; being the ass or having someone be an ass to you....point is, they both feel like crap! According to him....it's all OK...which is so very nice of him to say....now let's capitalize the feeling of CRAP! But that's not the end of it....now something is going on in his life that to put it bluntly makes all my problems and bullshit look like a speck of dust or nothing is this big bad world. And so my feeling like crap is now capitalized and bold letters: CRAP! And so thru a little bit of humility...OK a lot, of my own making...i can see yet another example that tells me i need to get the hell out of my own way...and acknowledge that you can be inspired to live better and let go, even by someone you barely know. The admiration and respect i have for this person for the courage he has and will show even more of and the loss of time with loved ones he will endure etc...makes my heart stop and hurt and ache imagining the experience myself. We must live well and be as good as we can be to others every day including our own families if for no other reason than to honor those that fight for the right so that we may.
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